Forget About People.

For the past two years there has been a sure stillness in my social life. Due to circumstances and changes, a great distance (both physical and emotional) has been wedged between the lives of me and my closest friends. Moving 1,000 or so miles away from everything that I once identified with life + friendship meant that the random thrifting trips, late night Applebees runs for half price appetizers, and hang out nights would become less frequent extinct.  Before I moved I was at a place where I had a solid group of Christian friends who I could honestly call brothers and sisters. They were such a huge part of my world. I had so much love for them (and still do!). Over the past few years we had watched each other mature in Christ and as people. We were truly friends in the realest sense of the word. My biggest burden when moving in December of 2010 was the fear that I would not be able to find such a group of friends with relationships so pure, godly, and real, again. But I reminded myself that God knew my needs and He could and would satisfy them. He would give me friends again.

But guess what… it didn’t happen. It just didn’t! I didn’t find the friendships that I was so desperately longing for. Some things that didn’t help were that I wasn’t in college like most other people my age and despite the fact that God had plugged me into an amazing church with an amazing youth outreach ministry, there were literally no young adults there. Yes, I was meeting different people in different places and making acquaintances, but those deep friendships that I longed for just weren’t happening. What I believed to be my greatest earthly need – relationship – was left unfulfilled. For two whole years.

It was hard. So hard. Feelings of loneliness crept in and often times felt unavoidable. But, I can honestly look back over the past two years and say that it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

God knew exactly what He was doing in withholding from me the one thing that I believed I needed most.

Over these past two years God has worked in me in such tremendous ways and taught me so much of who I am. Who I truly am… apart from people.

I look back at all that I once was and see just how much of everything I did was simply a cry to be acknowledged and appreciated. Every one of my actions and words were so carefully thought out and elaborately planned so as to satisfy the needs of others… simply so that they would like me and satisfy my greatest need – to be accepted and loved.

Because that’s what it all comes down to: the very human and innate desire to be safe and secure in someone or  something.

We are an unsatisfied and unfulfilled people. So much of what we do – whether intentionally or unintentionally – is simply a cry for someone to notice us. We are more needy than we think… at least I am.

We are longing for something more.

But we have it all wrong. We somehow think that having more people around us will satisfy us – whether in real life – or on Facebook. We seek validation from others by becoming like others. It is a viscous cycle that will never be able to do the one thing for which it was intended: satisfy.

These last two years have taught me the importance of focusing on ourselves. The idea of focusing on ourselves can easily become a forgotten concept in a Christian world where so much of what we are called to do involves other people. But a failure to nurture ourselves and our innermost being is a failure to recognize that the very essence of our Christianity is us and Christ. We need to know who we are. Who we truly are. We need to learn of all that God intended for us to be when He created us. God is eager and willing to teach us. But our hearts can only respond to these lessons when we are finally at the place where we are no longer crying out for the approval of people.

You see, before we can ever truly love people and remember them – we must forget them. We must be rid of every part of ourselves that seeks validation from people. We must become apart from them before we can ever truly be with them.

We must spend time alone with God. We must find out who He created us to be. We must learn Him. We must learn ourselves. We must become secure… whole… complete. We must get to the place where the very core of our existence is based upon truths revealed to us by God, in prayer.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not telling you to ditch your friends. I love people. I love relationship. It is special, it is sweet, it is important. God created it to be that way. I am so incredibly thankful for the handful of precious new friendships that God has brought into my life and allowed to blossom in the past few months. Having genuine, like-minded, Christlike friends is something with which few other things can compare. But I am also overwhelmingly thankful for that still and often lonely period, which was the past two years, because of all that God taught me in that quiet place.

My friends, do not despise the quiet place.

Our hearts long to be hidden. Praise God that we have a Father who whispers into our innermost being, “Hide yourself in Me.”

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17 comments

  1. Praise God! He works in interesting ways :-)
    I had a similar experience this year. I moved to North Carolina for a short period. I knew no one, no family, no friends, no one. During my stay there God taught me the true meaning of faith. He taught me to be patient, to depend on him fully. He fed me and helped me to grow. I learned to love God, like truly truly love Him!
    Thanks for sharing and God bless!

    1. Thank YOU so much for taking the time to read and share your experience with me !=)

  2. I felt lonely when our family first moved to the Middle East, where we were for 4 years. I was far from friends and family and it was difficult. What I learned during that time was to really rely on and trust God. God drew me closer to Him by spending time with Him daily that I would have normally spent with friends. Thankfully, I did make lots of friends and really wonderful sisters in Christ. What I took away from those quiet times is that what I really need more than anything else in the world is an intimate relationship with Christ! Praise God that He spoke to you and taught you during your quiet times!

    1. Wow… the middle east. I can’t imagine being that far away and alone. Thanks for sharing your story me =) You’re right, what we do need more than anything else is an intimate relationship with Jesus. I am happy that you found such great friends and sisters… I hope to find as many sweet friendships and begin to build them upon that true + solid foundation which is Christ =)

  3. Tola, you sure you didn’t somehow jump into my mind and steal my thought? ‘Cause wow, I completel echo your feelings. It’s hard and it’s painful and I often actually hate it, but I am *learning* that yes, God does withhold the things we so think we need to cause us to deepen our relationship with Him and remember that He truly is all we *need* (though not often all we want, lol). Merry Christmas!

    ~Kelly
    http://leafynotbeefy.com

    1. “Though not often all we want”… could this be more true? Hehe. And yes it is a learning process… one which often takes a little longer than I would prefer! Thank you for taking the time to read and comment and Merry Christmas to you too my friend =)

  4. I needed to hear this. Thank you!

  5. Question: Are you Nigerian?

    1. Thank you for reading and yes I am! :)

  6. Beautiful, Tola! Your post echos my own heart: that we are a longing people. Longing for wholeness in a very broken world. Whether we have moved cross country or are still in our childhood home, we continue to long. Thankful that we are promised wholeness by our Father. :) Blessings, friend!

    1. Amen! Thank you for reading Cassie =)

  7. We must meet one day!

    1. I heartily agree :) :)

  8. Danielle I. · · Reply

    Great post!! In our society especially, we are so used to being ‘connected’ and are so bombarded with various media, that the idea of quietness is foreign. Yet even Jesus left the multitudes to seek solitude with God. When we enter more baron seasons of life, it’s so easy to feel as if we’re back-tracking and not accomplishing anything, but God seeks to teach us in those quiet times. It’s definitely something that I’m still learning…praise God for His patience and mercy! :)

    Happy New Year, Tola! Love the new layout and profile picture!! :)

    1. Thank you so much Danielle! =)

  9. writerchick42 · · Reply

    Tola, I just wanted to let you know that I made a BIG mistake in changing my username. So I am back again as WriterChick. Just letting you know!

  10. writerchick42 · · Reply

    One last thing, I very recently started a brand new blog, which is the refined version of WriterChick, if you would like to check it out and or follow, the link is: http://kellydetzel.wordpress.com :-)

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